12 weeks

So, here is my official post. We are pregnant with our 5th child. Due--December 27th, 2009. Yesterday I hit my 12 week mark which is nice, although I fee like I've been pregnant forever, it's still nice to get the first trimester under my belt. Pregnancy is probably the hardest thing I do. My body and pregnancy just don't mix. I get really sick. We won't go into detail...just take me word for it. With this pregnancy I really wanted to just drop off the face of the earth. I've only been able to lay in bed and look around and sleep. Walking makes me sick, reading made me sick, even sitting at the computer made me sick for several weeks. I can't enter a kitchen as the smells, sights, and even sounds send me into fits. Monty has been great taking care of our other kids as my desire to do that has been ZERO. I feel so bad, but I just can't. Food and I have a love-HATE relationship as I have to have it, but hate to eat. I have to brush my teeth with baking soda because toothpaste is just nasty(while I'm pregnant). Anyway, getting through this first part of pregnancy stinks, but it will be worth it. I love my kids so much(even though right now I struggle with them). They bring me so much job. Two nights ago I had the energy to get Trey into his pj's and he even made me laugh. It had been a while since I'd laughed doing that. It gave me hope that one day I'll feel normal again. Anyway, I don't mean for this to be a whinny post, it is just reality. I am excited for this baby...just can't wait to feel better. The journeys that are the hardest are the most worth it.

Nine years...

Today Monty and I celebrate our 9th anniversary. When I think back to nine years ago today I never would have imagined all life would have in store for us. It's only been nine years but man we've done a lot!! I'm thankful to have Monty by my side. I'm thankful for the family we have and the blessings our four boys have been in our life. I'm thankful for Monty's example to them. I'm also very thankful for Monty's patience during this time when I'm not on my 'A' game. I still can't believe we are expecting a 5th baby, but know this baby will be a fun addition to our family. Happy Anniversary Monty. I love you.